Letter to our Spiritual Guide, by Florica Steva from Iasi
This text contains Florica Steva’s letter for our Spiritual guide written in September 2007 as well as the answers offered by the Spiritual Guide, inserted with capital letters.
My dears, I have recently returned from the Costinesti Camp. When I consecrated for the participation to this camp, my answer was amazing. An overwhelming state of joy invaded me and I felt that God was waiting for me there for a meeting of love. And it was like that.
The sympathy and sometimes love of those who welcomed me when I came to the camp was special and unexpected for me; I was surrounded by care, attention and tenderness at a high degree, so the feeling that I love now is: “Oh Lord! I do not understand how I deserve all this!” PLEASE BE AWARE FROM NOW ON THAT EACH OF US HAS WHAT WE DESERVE. NOR MORE, NOR LESS: ONLY WHAT WE DESERVE. BE HUMBLE AND MODEST AND PRESERVE YOURSELF ALWAYS IN THIS STATE.
Many of the participants smiled at me with sympathy, some of them kept hugging me and saying nice words to me, and others wished to talk to me. I exchanged at least a few words with all of them and they wanted to tell me how much I resemble my spiritual guide, even like a mimic, with gestures, etc- This also happened at Iasi as well, which I can not explain, except only through their longing for the spiritual guide and through the reflection – or projection – of the guide inside me. I have part of the holly grace and am aware and grateful for that. BE GRATEFUL ONLY TO OUR HEAVENLY FATHER GOD.
The majority that came to talk to me had mostly problems of spiritual practice type, meditation techniques, etc, but at a certain moment – almost inevitably – appeared a blockage in their relationship with the spiritual guide. In time, I became aware that this led those who needed toward me. I hope I brought them understanding, consolation and peace. Sometimes, when I told them what I was thinking they should do, they answered me: “exactly as my spiritual guide has told me”, PLEASE REPLY TO THOSE WHO ASK YOU SIMILAR QUESTIONS THAT IF ONCE HAVE BEEN TOLD BY THE SPIRITUAL GUIDE THEY SHOULD NOT WASTE THEIR TIME AND ASK TO THE RIGHT AND LEFT ONCE AGAIN, BUT TO START PUTTING IN PRACTICE WHAT WAS ONCE INDICATED TO THEM LONG TIME AGO; and these words encouraged me, it meant that they are on the right way. I advised all of them to write to the spiritual guide.
This year’s camp was extremely charged, the field was very, very intense (sometimes had a violet shaded light and was almost unbearable, it was so intense). Conferences have been a lot – as they have been telling me – opportunity for thinking and understanding. At the conference about the romantic epoch and romantics I fully recognized myself. Although the camp was physically very solicitant, there existed a special roar in all of us, like some mysterious happiness. IT IS VERY GOOD WHAT YOU FELT, MEANING THAT YOU RESONATED WITH THE RESPECTIVE STATE.
I understood that Z (from Cluj) has written to you about me. When I first saw Z, I clearly felt that I know him very well, from other lives. In a spiral he had the perception of some fragments from other lives. He told me and then wrote them to you. I hope you didn’t mind. THERE HAS BEEN NO REASON TO GET UPSET.
At the hiatus, I decided to do the meditation at home, to spare my forces. I was awaken and happy all night. The only two hours that I felt in a profound sleep was the once after the hiatus spiral. I slept with 15 minutes before it started and woke up suddenly 10 minutes after the spiral ended. To my surprise, I had the sensation that I did what God wanted, I was totally peaceful, and the “sleeping” was special, like God covered my body with an energetic “blanket”, separating it totally from the rest of my own being. The next day, a young lady told me that in the spiral she “came out” of her body and first arrived in a world with angelic entities that were praying. Then she rose to a level where she found me in peace and light. Then we both climbed – as if I was expecting it – to a higher level where many beings were meditating together with our spiritual guide. She felt she was led there because she had something to do – but, the level being very high, she could not resist long and descended back in her body. I remained constantly there. Correlating her story with the “sleeping” I had, am wondering if I hadn’t be at the spiral myself and that perhaps that is why God “covered” totally my body causing me to sleep. YES, IT IS CORRECT WHAT YOU HAVE SENSED.
Before the arriving to the camp I had a dream where my spiritual guide was teaching me the love of the guide for his disciple. I could never imagine, didn’t read or find out till now that such immense love exists; a total that surpasses infinitely the highest human love. Through this love, my spiritual guide was holding me like a child, close to his heart, made me identify myself with that, and through this, with the Divine Supreme Love. I had a very intense feeling of protection. When I woke up, I could not believe that I had part of such a high grace from my spiritual guide – I discovered the feeling of spiritual son. YES, IT IS CORECT.
In the night with trance music, I participated as well for about an hour to the show. With the help of the music and the chosen images by our Spiritual guide, I managed to live a profound identification with him, in my soul. This identification brought me an amazing happiness, that – metaphorically speaking- “broke my heart”, especially when I found out how much we miss our spiritual guide. PLEASE BE AWARE THAT THIS IS IN FACT THE LONGING OF OUR HEAVENLY FATHER GOD FOR HIS CHILDREN, WHOM HE WANTS TO HELP FOR THEM TO DISCOVER HIM, BECAUSE HE IS LONG TIME NOW WAITING FOR THEM, AND LET THE OTHERS KNOW THAT THE ENTIRE CREATION IT IS A GIFT THAT OUR CREATOR IN HIS IMMENSE LOVE FOR HIS CREATURE IS OFFERING, THUS ALL CREATURES WHO OPEN THEMSELVES TOWARDS HIM, FULL WITH LOVE WILL DISCOVER HIM AND PRAISE HIM; FOR THIS PLEASE TEACH THEM, SO WHEN THEY WILL DISCOVER THIS MYSTERY THROUGH ECSTATIC DIRECT EXPERIENCE, TO BE ABLE TO SAY:
Glory be to thee heavenly father
Glory be to thee, glory be to thee,
Now and for ever and ever
I thank thee for the mysterious grace
That thou pour in our hearts and beings
When we to thee thank full of love and gratitude
glory be to thee, now and forever and ever
As it seems to me, we are not always sufficiently integrating the human aspect of our spiritual guide, PLEASE BE AWARE THAT THIS MYSETERIOS AMAZING AND OVERWHELMING ASPECT IS COMING FROM THE ENDLESS AND UNCONDITIONAL LOVE THAT OUR HEAVENYL FATHER GOD IS POURING ON THEIR SONS WHO DESERVE IT.
In this camp I intuit my spiritual guide as a person and I felt – -not only myself, but others as well whom I talked – how much he invest himself in “bringing us to light”, to truth, beauty, love, GOD, that we can anger him as well as please him. We do not much think: “let me please my master”. PLEASE BE AWARE THAT ALL YOU SAY IS REFERRING IN REALITY TO THE ACTION OF PLEASING THROUGH OUR IMMENSE LOVE, THAT WE CAN GIVE, AT LEAST SOMETIMES, WHEN WE THANK SINCERELY AND FULL OF GRATITUDE FOR OUR HEAVENLY FATHER GOD, SLAVING FOR HIS GRANDEUR AND COMPASSION THAT HE MANIFESTS FOR EACH OF US IN PART AS FOR ALL OF US.
I would like now to describe how I am feeling lately. Everything happened in an evening, when I felt like diving in my body and fulfilling myself. THIS “MYSELF” IS IN FACT THE AMAZING AND MYSTERIOUSLY SUPREME REALITY OF THE SUPREME INNER SELF, ATMAN. I felt its amazing frenetic happiness in the presence of this “myself”. I noticed that that I am totally free – not conditioned by my body, that am diving into the entire manifestation, filling it with myself, in the endless space, filling it with myself.
It amazes me the great speed of “my” displacement, of my consciousness in the infinite space. At one of the spirals I become a point and then I descended in the depth of the earth, then in another second I am raised in the supreme divine heart. These words: “descend, rise” are unsuitable for something that is nothing – or it is everything – it is very hard to describe them. ALL THESE ASPECTS ARE INEFFABLE AND TESTIFY THEM TO ALL WHO ARE PREPARED THUS AWAKENING IN THEM THE IMPULSE TO DISCOVER FOR THEMSELVES THESE OVERWHELMING MYSTERIES THROUGH ITS GRANDEUR AND THE INDESCRIBABLE SUBLIME.
I live totally the state of fascination and mystery with which God impregnates the entire creation, I savor the fascination and mystery of the present moment, I experience happily the miracles that surround me, I “melt” in everything and I fill myself with it, I rediscover myself in the billions of mirific particles of the WORLD and I am one with them, I feel I am one with EVERYTHING, I am one with the LIGHT, one with the Supreme Divine Heart. It is like an amazing and extraordinary explosion of “me” in EVERYTHING. Please tell me what is this amazing feeling? THIS MIRIFIC AND AMAZING FEELING IS THE ENIGMATIC EXTATIC STATE KNOWN BY THE WISE UNDER THE NAME OF BHAVA SAMADHI OR OTHERWISE THE SUPREME DIVINE ECSTASY THAT IS REALISED WITH THE EYES OPEN, BEING ALSO FELT IN A SUBLIME STATE OF DEIFICATION, EVEN IN THE INTEGRAL DIMENSION OF THE BODY.
What is this amazing explosion? THIS INEFFABLE AND PROFOUNDLY MYSTERIOUS STATE THAT IS RESERVED TO THE FEW ONES IS WHAT GREAT WISEMEN NAME AS THE EXPERIENCING OF DIVINE ECSTASY OF BEING SIMULTANEOUSLY PRESENT IN EVERYTHING THROUGH THE OMNIPRESENT EXPERIENCE OF THE SUPREME DIVINE SELF. THIS IS THE STATE OF IMMORTALITY THAT GREAT WISEMEN HAVE WRITTEN ABOUT AND CONFESSED THAT CAN BE SAVORED WHEN THE HUMAN BEING BECOMES , BY TOUCHING THESE PEAKS, IMMORTAL IN SPIRIT.
Am I on the right path? FIND OUT THAT YOU ARE ON THE EXTRAORDINARY GOOD PATH THAT IS RESERVED TO THE FEW AND CHOSEN ONES. YOU HAVE TO BE CAREFUL THOUGH TO THE FEW MAJOR SPIRITUAL TESTS THAT WILL LATER APPEAR. IF YOU PASS THEM WELL, THEN IT WILL PRODUCE A FINAL AND COMPLETE LEAP INTO THE SUPREME PERFECTION. DO NOT FORGET, THAT AS JESUS WAS TESTED, NOONE ESCAPES THUS FROM SUCH EXAMS WHICH STRENGTHEN THE ASPIRANT WHEN THEY ARE WELL PASSED AND CONSECRATES HIM FOREVER, NEVER FALLING AGAIN FROM THESE SUPREME STATES. PRAY TO GOD TO PASS ALL THESE FINAL SPIRITUAL TESTS WELL AND DO NOT FORGET THAT THE MOST IMPORTANT IN ALL THESE SITUATIONS WILL BE HUMBLENESS, ENDLESS LOVE, THE STATE OF A PERFECTLY LUCID AND DETACHED WITNESS AND FIRM FAITH IN GOD.
I thank you and hug you with the same love of a spiritual son that you taught me to live. PLEASE NEVER FORGET THAT ALL YOU HAVE BEEN AND WILL BE OFFERED ARE SPRINGING TOTALLY FROM OUR HEAVENLY FATHER GOD AND NEVER FORGET THAT HE AND ONLY HE DESERVES ALL THE GRATITUDE, LOVE AND PRAISE. THAT IS WHY IT IS NECESSARY FOR YOU TO OFTEN UTTER THESE WORDS:
I THANK YOU HEAVENLY FATHER
THAT YOU OFFER ME THROUGH YOUR GRACE AND ALMIGHTINESS
THE POSSIBILITY TO LOVE YOUR WORK AND YOUR CREATURES
IN A CERTAIN MEASURE AFTER OUR HUMBLE POSSIBILITIES
EXACTLY AS YOU LOVE IN ETERNITY.
WE ASK YOU; IF YOU AGREE AS WELL TO LET US PUBLISH ON THE SITE YOGAESOTERIC THE CONTENTS OF THIS LETTER, TOGETHER WITH OUR REPLIES AND ALSO TO BE INCLUDED IN THE ENCYCLOPEDIA OF SPIRITUAL FRUITS.
I THANK YOU FOR THIS EXCITING LETTER WITH SELF-EVIDENT CONFESSIONS AND SPIRITUALLY SUBLIME, THAT DISCRIBES WITH HONESTY AND PURITY THE GIFTS THAT GOD OFFERS YOU BECAUSE YOU DESERVE THEM. I HUG YOU WITH ENDLESS DIVINE LOVE AND I WISH YOU SUCCESS.